I used to have something to look forward to. A huge change. A whole new enviroment to look forward to. I guess I’m a sore loser. Because now that I have nothing, I don’t know where to go from here. I have no freaking clue. I was so excited for a while. I thought, things […]Read more "Sore Loser/If shock therapy doesn’t work"
I really did not expect to take the end this badly. What is there to be surprised by by now? People come and people go. They come and are still and peaceful and say the right things and you start to think that things will be different this time. And then they go, destroying […]Read more "The bad days"
Therapy session yesterday: “It’s like the stages of grief keep on repeating themselves, I don’t get it.” “Well, I get it, it’s really hard to grieve someone who isn’t really dead, because you hear from him or about him and know that he’s really alive.” I don’t wish he was dead, most of the time, […]Read more "Mourning the living/shock therapy"